Clashing Feelings...

I feel relieved but still sad
I feel secure but still unwanted 

I feel like I can make it but still tired

I feel the blessing but also the curse

I feel my spirit man's strength but still my flesh's weakness

I feel the realness of my truth but still the shame of my facade 

It's not about what I feel

It's about what I focus on

And for each pair of my clashing feelings

As difficult as it may be

I choose to focus on the feeling
That directs me towards HIM

That directs me towards...

@ Miami Beach focusing on my joy :)

LIFE

LIFE is a battle

Not easily won

"Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit" says the Lord Almighty... Zechariah 4:6

So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want... Galatians 5:16-17 

Delicate Flower

Like a delicate flower

Finds the strength

To spring back up slowly

After the rain beats it down,

I find the strength

To spring back up slowly

After my God 

Takes all the Weight

And all the burdens  

I've been carrying

Into HIS own hands

And just like the flower,

I am watered,

refreshed,

And all the more beautiful

At the end of the storm

I am a delicate, beautiful flower

with an indescribable strength

that comes from HIM

And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore; most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me... II Corinthians 13:9